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  2005.12.22  05.33
end of an era, reprise

  • eating jello out of a pan
  • conversations in rounds
  • (nothing ever really gets said)
  • remember when you loved me?
  • not knowing that you held those things precious
  • "you usually start on wednesdays"
  • wanting so very much to make things special
  • marking your territory
  • clips from gettysburg
  • you still have all the letters i gave you on your refrigerator
  • "whose bed am i in?"

  • but nothing we ever did was as good as i wanted it to be.

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      2004.03.05  00.00
    where are we going?

    birth control pills
    {minimum: 7} shimmery outfits
    gloves, access, etc.
    passport (in the event of in depth escapism!)
    pearls, of course
    scarves
    extreme listmaking paraphenalia (plane-time fun!)
    gifties for scribble, ashley, amie, q, & miss hannah
    book for plane reads
    claspy purse
    dinosaur toothbrush, other primping gear
    socks GALORE!
    undies x yay!
    printout of flight times
    ladybug w/ ribbon guts
    mini dv cam
    regular digicam
    extra batteries
    telly phone
    + chargers, yadda yadda
    glitter, confetti, pompoms
    stickers



    Mood: packrat
    Music: mogwai
     
     


     
      2003.10.24  00.16
    how i miss...

  • a q for every city
  • to sleep w/ a loved one
  • feeling oh-so-very
  • casey & i dancing on the bed
  • fingerpaints, it all feels better when i'm touching you
  • waking up w/ confettis on my our skin

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      2003.04.21  17.13
    compulsions

  • must use orange highlighter for textbooks
  • must load heavy laundries first
  • must fill gas tank before it reaches 1/4 tank
  • cannot turn steering wheel all the way in one direction
  • must print all documents in draft to save ink
  • can only take notes in a certain order
  • weight of paper


  • (to be cont)

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      2003.01.05  04.00
    gift & thrift

    new acquisitions:

  • 5 my little ponies
  • 2 glowworms
  • deep green velvet waistcoat
  • pale green fitted sweater *pearlbuttons
  • long lavander!plum shawl
  • red+blue+black circus dress
  • ladybug mittens!
  • navy slinkysleek slip

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      2002.12.03  13.06
    ♥ in my pocket

  • [info]scribble
  • [info]aliceinanything

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      2002.11.03  16.05


    some other people were listing their past hallow's eve costumes, and i wanted to see if i could remember mine...

    2002: pippi!
    2001: raspberry tart
    2000: a peacock
    1999: fire
    1998: air
    1997: a vampire kitty!
    1996: i don't think i dressed up? i was probably like rainbow brite or something

    others:
    + a cheerleader
    + alf
    + a kitten
    + a devil
    + a clown
    + a hippie
    + a ladybug

     
     


     
      2002.09.28  02.08
    splish,splash~!

    a list of fancy-ish umbrellas i've seen recently!
  • flowers
  • fishes
  • impressionist paintings
  • fishnet with fringe (i wish)
  • clouds
  • globes
  • ladybug (not like mine, but we complimented eachother!) <mine's cuter, it has antennae>
    & the very bestest one%
  • an umbrella decorated with other umbrellas!

    people need to get more creative with their umbrella-ing! share the fun!

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      2002.09.13  12.28
    current lists:



  • camera accessories
  • bank account
  • ⋄ $s
  • [text]books
  • meal plan
  • expenses
  • current lists
  • mailbox
  • class schedule
  • homework
  • to do #96,345,827,134,806
  • about philly
  • SCAT equipment
  • address changes
  • bring with / take home
  • buy
  • birthdays



    Mood: ditzy
    Music: why do they have ditzy but not dizzy?
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      2002.08.11  04.24
    things to do in l.a.

  • silent movie theatre
  • sanrio store!
  • play in the canyons
  • bloomers from ozzie dots
  • sunglasses too!
  • wacko
  • maybe look for old friends?
  • sex with the ocean
  • rollerskates!
  • disneyland...?
  • pictures of the old apartment building (daydreams;nightmares)
  • venice beach, funs!
  • find clubs through secret doors
  • ticket to portland?
  • scientology test (ha :)
  • find my sewing supplies?
  • lots of things with question marks!
  • even more with exclamation points!
  • do coke with scribble !!!
  • miss peoples
  • tiramisu!
  • camera supply store
  • sex store
  • melrose, jet rag {sunday}
  • there must be someplace that i like to eat very muchly?
  • kisses for the ocean, for everyone. swoon swoon!

    *oh,
  • old speghetti factory!
    & barney's beanery, possibly
  • {dom perignon + chili-cheese-dog combo!}
    **del taco & jack
    ***get thrown out of a bar while puking on scribble!!!!

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      2002.07.11  13.36
    2. Sensation; special sensation; light; complementary colors

    Greenness.
    [Nouns] green; blue and yellow; vert.
    emerald, verd antique, verdigris, malachite, beryl, aquamarine; absinthe, cr?me de menthe.
    [Pigments] terre verte, verditer, verdine.
    greenness, verdure; viridity, viridescence; verditure.
    [Adjectives] green, verdant; glaucous, olive; green as grass; verdurous.
    emerald green, pea green, grass green, apple green, sea green, olive green, bottle green.
    greenish; virent, virescent.


     
     


     
      2002.07.11  12.49
    the schoolbox giftie from jermand!

    * foam shape kit
    * green travel spirograph!
    * pack of 4 flourescent erasers
    * glitter cirque-y stickers
    * glitter butterflies
    * regular butterfligh stickers
    * glow in the dark * stickers!
    * ladybug bead-y!
    * loads of sparkle colour pencils!
    * 3 green champagne bubblies, ha! ;)
    * huge green champagne bottle blow-up toy
    * 3d butterfly stickers
    * sparkling candles
    * stripe-y pencil pouch
    * green food colouring ~ rah! %% (i've already masturbated w/ it!)
    * orange blossoms tin w/ girls kissing!
    * mini yoyo
    * 3 ickle tape dispensers (so cute!)
    * more butterfly stickers
    * glitter bouncy ball
    * champagne confettis! <3
    * glitter star tights
    * lots of mini markers
    * A LADYBUG PENCIL!!!
    * a "sparkle fun activity kit" which comes with {a mini list of its own!}:
    + animal stickers
    + crepe papers
    + oragami papers
    + confetti!
    + regular papers
    + construction papers
    + oh-so-many papers!!! :D
    * ladybug blow bubbles toy!
    * yay!

     
     


     
      2002.07.11  12.43
    all drawn out

    -invites me to places where he's making drug deals (1)
    -friends that i can't stand
    -doesn't show up for felix drinks
    -leaves when i am curled up in a ball
    -never dancing,
    -'dinner' means drinks
    -he makes promises he can't keep
    -doesn't call when he says he will
    -doesn't realize the severity of my desires,
    -the weight i hold upon them.
    -un-cirque us.
    -all apologies,
    -all excuses.
    -leaves me no directions to his house
    -makes it a point to point out his ex i don't even really care about this one, it just confused me.
    -tells me to follow this cat he needs some money from (2)
    -invites people over to swim, who make secret requests that hurt my feelings (3)
    -has the nerve to get into my car smelling like pot, (4)
    after i brought him to this place so he could "drop off money for a concert ticket" which was supposed to last 30 seconds?

    i don't know. i don't know what to do.

     
     


     
      2002.07.11  00.35
    mania expense account

  • +2500 sticker kit
  • two pair fishnet stockings [lavander & seafoam]
  • two pair socks [green barcode & green + purple swirlies]
  • two pair tinkerbelle undies
  • one slimming blk lace pantaloons
  • story of o
  • little altars everywhere
  • five prescriptions, none of them working?

    skipping work because i can't stand up without the fear of crashing through the window?

    + in the p.m.:
  • eleven slips / vintage lingerie
  • one pollyanna ruffled gown
  • one 60s blue sea foam dress
  • one black satin beaded mermaid wrap
  • one pair (ever desired) penny loafers
  • one pair black velvet maryjanes
  • one pair black wool slacks

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      2002.06.23  20.53


    i wish:
  • i had seen billie holiday perform
    live

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      2002.06.23  20.53
    three favourite movie see[n]s

  • "h'ray for bubbles!" [wings]
  • dance hypnoteyes [metropolis]
    &
  • skin e{merge}nce} [hiroshima, mon amour]

    + eisenstein, eisenstein, eisenstein
    [even though it terrifies me]

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      2002.06.16  01.40
    a glorious day

    in my hair: 2 st*rs, a fl*wer, & a butt*rfly

    on my walk:
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    in my hair: 2 st*rs, a fl*wer, & a butt*rfly

    on my walk:
    <li="circle">
    <li>flowers in the windowsill
    <li>"oh, you pretty air!"
    <li>2 women w/ a baby
    <li>people talking in the street
    <li>writing this list
    <li>a group of men in blue shirts
    <li>two women holding hands
    <li>tomato shirts!
    <li>little birds
    <li>"hello!"
    <li>street crossing
    <li>random smiles
    <li>"have a good night now!"
    <li>rainbow bookstores
    <li>listening to people flirting in line
    <li>green arrows pointing at the moon
    <li>2 couples holding hands
    <li>a man tying his shoe
    <li><i>"take a walk through the park, take a valium pill"</i>
    <li>mango milkshakes


     
     


     
      2002.06.10  14.51
    the college collage

    as written; fonts needed = (is a list in itself!) arial narrow, robot teacher, two turtle doves, ravie, pristina, parade, jokerman, french script MT, curlz MT, MS reference serif, action jackson, gill sans MT, freestyle script

    i know i will.

    COLLeGe:

    Need:

    > hello kitty coffee pot > stereo > ribbons > cute pencils, notebooks > iron? > toiletries > baskets (?) / or more hatboxes! > mirror

    * B R I N G W i T H : *

    bloomers, ribbons, china plates, cd's, nancy drew books (???), sandman, some craft supplies, highlighters!, camera?, some gloves, CUTe sheets!, tap shoes + ballet slippers, B . O . O . K . S, text, S*T*iC*Ke*R*S!, peacock feathers?,
    oooh, i like the way my head sounds when i move it...
    , teacups (definately), hello kitty soaps, hand painted champagne glasses, handbags, blankets, art supplies, SOCKS!, fishnets, lollipops, computer! (hee!), school stuff (files, etc.), & excitement!


    keep behind :(

    memories (no, not that kind!)
    champagne bottles
    hatboxes ?
    clothes
    cd cases
    not sure @ masques


     
     


     
      2002.05.21  02.08
    miss pell

    ocasionally
    tomorrow
    apparently
    embarassed
    parrallel
    perpindicular

     
     


     
      2002.05.01  11.28
    unsent

    * font = may queen

    Dear Matthew raoul,
    I like you a lot.
    I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now,
    And I respect that.
    I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future and you want to
    Come visit me in california, I would be
    Open to spending time with you and
    Finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song.

    Dear Jonathan
    jeremy,
    I liked you too much.
    I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
    And think solely about themselves. and you were
    Plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time.
    I used to say 'the more tragic the better'.
    The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90s, your face comes up with a vengeance
    Like it was yesterday.

    Dear Terrance
    casey,
    I love you muchly
    You've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
    And nurturing, and consumately there for me.
    I kept drawing you in
    And pushing you away. I remember how beautiful it was
    To fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time, you were the
    Best platform from which to jump beyond myself What was wrong with me?

    Dear Marcus
    goblin,
    You rocked my world.
    You had a charismatic way about you with the women
    And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality.
    And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass,
    But I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you though.
    And that stopped us from going any further than we did,
    And it's kind of too bad, 'cause we could've had much more fun.

    Dear Lou
    q,
    We learned so much.
    I realize we won't be able to talk for some time,
    And I understand that as I do you.
    The long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could;
    We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives.
    I will always have your back and be curious about you
    About your career, your whereabouts.

    ....

     
     


     
      2002.04.24  17.57
    i drew hearts

  • he has funny hair
  • he helps me finish my projects
  • he encourages me to be a "good" girl
  • {backseat fellatio!}
  • he eats lollies with me
  • he whispers, "you are marvelous"
  • he takes me to see delicious girls and lets me % them backstage
  • he is a hippie (i forgive him)
  • he makes patchwork pants! (twinsies!)
  • he brings me water to drink when we are sleepies
  • he picks me up when i am drunk
  • he gets me drunk!
  • my pants mysteriously disappear when i am with him
  • he gets me off while i drive
  • he does not make fun of me for calling peanuts "candy-apple nuts"
  • he is oh-so polite to my mother
  • he says "we can do anything you want" & means it.
  • he read my nancy drew sleuth book while i finished my design. (it was the cutest thing ever)
  • he is compassionate.
  • he celebrates with me
  • he celebrates me!
  • we celebrate each other :)
  • he orders good drink
  • he gives good massage
  • he helps me feel free
  • he studies film-making! (twinsies #2!)
  • he laughs often
  • he kisses often
  • popsicles-in-waiting!

    additional:
  • he dresses me in nightgowns when i am too drunk to move
  • he wraps me in a bumblebee when i am too fucked to wave
  • he lets me hold him down and drink him in
  • when i am too afraid of everything
  • he does not let me drive into trees,
  • he whispers that he wants to make forever last
    with me

    %

    but the best part is,

  • he recognizes when i am uncomfortable
    &
  • he does not disappear when i am sad. *:?

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      2002.04.10  17.46
    we see you!

  • all of my credits are transferrable (except for the seminar on mass suicide ;) oh golly gee!
  • dancing is ethical
  • green walls and donut-shaped buildings... %
  • quirky professors
  • no-where to live!
  • sex shoppes & government
    * people with rainbow hair

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      2002.04.10  17.27
    for the love of psychology


    • black knit minidress

    • black tights
    • hot pink fishnets
    • pink bloomers
    • pink ribbon around neck
    • lighter pink ribbon in hair
    • black platform heels
    • black velvet coat
    • hot pink / lime green nails

    • pink highlighters! %


     
     


     
      2002.04.03  18.42
    ultimate list-ness

    * on a star quest
    * ninja lickin' good!

     
     


     
      2002.04.03  18.10
    social interaction / interpersonal theory

    dependancy:
    + / [mostly -] arrestation

    malevolent transformation:
    ... [somewhat +]

    social learning:
    massively [-] arrestation!

    human relationships:
    ...

    heterosexual relationships:
    + arrestation

    functional adulthood:
    + arrestation

     
     


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