list-en

end of an era, reprise

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 11:38:30 GMT

eating jello out of a pan

conversations in rounds

(nothing ever really gets said)

remember when you loved me?

not knowing that you held those things precious

"you usually start on wednesdays"

wanting so very much to make things special

marking your territory

clips from gettysburg

you still have all the letters i gave you on your refrigerator

"whose bed am i in?"

but nothing we ever did was as good as i wanted it to be.

where are we going?

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 04:27:14 GMT

birth control pills
{minimum: 7} shimmery outfits
gloves, access, etc.
passport (in the event of in depth escapism!)
pearls, of course
scarves
extreme listmaking paraphenalia (plane-time fun!)
gifties for scribble, ashley, amie, q, & miss hannah
book for plane reads
claspy purse
dinosaur toothbrush, other primping gear
socks GALORE!
undies x yay!
printout of flight times
ladybug w/ ribbon guts
mini dv cam
regular digicam
extra batteries
telly phone
+ chargers, yadda yadda
glitter, confetti, pompoms
stickers

how i miss...

Fri, 24 Oct 2003 03:47:41 GMT

a q for every city

to sleep w/ a loved one

feeling oh-so-very

casey & i dancing on the bed

fingerpaints, it all feels better when i'm touching you

waking up w/ confettis on my our skin

compulsions

Mon, 21 Apr 2003 20:51:39 GMT

must use orange highlighter for textbooks

must load heavy laundries first

must fill gas tank before it reaches 1/4 tank

cannot turn steering wheel all the way in one direction

must print all documents in draft to save ink

can only take notes in a certain order

weight of paper

(to be cont)

gift & thrift

Sun, 05 Jan 2003 09:10:08 GMT

new acquisitions:

5 my little ponies

2 glowworms

_deep green velvet waistcoat

pale green fitted sweater *pearlbuttons

long lavander!plum shawl

red+blue+black circus dress

ladybug mittens!

navy slinkysleek slip

♥ in my pocket

Tue, 03 Dec 2002 17:49:09 GMT

scribble

aliceinanything

Sun, 03 Nov 2002 20:49:48 GMT

some other people were listing their past hallow's eve costumes, and i wanted to see if i could remember mine...

2002: pippi!
2001: raspberry tart
2000: a peacock
1999: fire
1998: air
1997: a vampire kitty!
1996: i don't think i dressed up? i was probably like rainbow brite or something

others:
+ a cheerleader
+ alf
+ a kitten
+ a devil
+ a clown
+ a hippie
+ a ladybug

splish,splash~!

Sat, 28 Sep 2002 05:54:30 GMT

a list of fancy-ish umbrellas i've seen recently!

flowers

fishes

impressionist paintings

fishnet with fringe (i wish)

clouds

globes

ladybug (not like mine, but we complimented eachother!) <mine's cuter, it has antennae>
& the very bestest one%

an umbrella decorated with other umbrellas!

people need to get more creative with their umbrella-ing! share the fun!

current lists:

Fri, 13 Sep 2002 16:14:23 GMT

camera accessories

bank account

⋄ $s

[text]books

meal plan

expenses

current lists

mailbox

class schedule

homework

to do #96,345,827,134,806

about philly

SCAT equipment

address changes

bring with / take home

buy

birthdays

things to do in l.a.

Sun, 11 Aug 2002 08:11:47 GMT

silent movie theatre

~~sanrio store!~~ ♥

play in the canyons

~~bloomers from ozzie dots~~

~~sunglasses too!~~

~~wacko~~

~~maybe look for old friends?~~

sex with the ocean

rollerskates!

disneyland...?

pictures of the old apartment building (daydreams;nightmares)

venice beach, funs!

~~find clubs through secret doors~~

ticket to portland?

scientology test (ha :)

find my sewing supplies?

lots of things with question marks!

~~even more with exclamation points!~~

~~do coke with scribble~~ !!!

miss peoples

tiramisu!

camera supply store

sex store

~~melrose, jet rag {sunday}~~

~~there must be someplace that i like to eat very muchly?~~

kisses for the ocean, for everyone. swoon swoon!

*oh,

old speghetti factory!
& barney's beanery, possibly

{dom perignon + chili-cheese-dog combo!}
**del taco & jack
***get thrown out of a bar while puking on scribble!!!!

2. Sensation; special sensation; light; complementary colors

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 17:25:55 GMT

Greenness.
[Nouns] green; blue and yellow; vert.
emerald, verd antique, verdigris, malachite, beryl, aquamarine; absinthe, cr?me de menthe.
[Pigments] terre verte, verditer, verdine.
greenness, verdure; viridity, viridescence; verditure.
[Adjectives] green, verdant; glaucous, olive; green as grass; verdurous.
emerald green, pea green, grass green, apple green, sea green, olive green, bottle green.
greenish; virent, virescent.

the schoolbox giftie from jermand!

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 16:39:37 GMT

* foam shape kit
* green travel spirograph!
* pack of 4 flourescent erasers
* glitter cirque-y stickers
* glitter butterflies
* regular butterfligh stickers
* glow in the dark * stickers!
* ladybug bead-y!
* loads of sparkle colour pencils!
* 3 green champagne bubblies, ha! ;)
* huge green champagne bottle blow-up toy
* 3d butterfly stickers
* sparkling candles
* stripe-y pencil pouch
* green food colouring ~ rah! %% (i've already masturbated w/ it!)
* orange blossoms tin w/ girls kissing!
* mini yoyo
* 3 ickle tape dispensers (so cute!)
* more butterfly stickers
* glitter bouncy ball
* champagne confettis! <3
* glitter star tights
* lots of mini markers
* A LADYBUG PENCIL!!!
* a "sparkle fun activity kit" which comes with {a mini list of its own!}:
+ animal stickers
+ crepe papers
+ oragami papers
+ confetti!
+ regular papers
+ construction papers
+ oh-so-many papers!!! :D
* ladybug blow bubbles toy!
* yay!

all drawn out

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 16:38:06 GMT

-invites me to places where he's making drug deals (1)
-friends that i can't stand
-doesn't show up for felix drinks
-leaves when i am curled up in a ball
-never dancing,
-'dinner' means drinks
-he makes promises he can't keep
-doesn't call when he says he will
-doesn't realize the severity of my desires,
-the weight i hold upon them.
-un-cirque us.
-all apologies,
-all excuses.
-leaves me no directions to his house
-~~makes it a point to point out his ex~~ i don't even really care about this one, it just confused me.
-tells me to follow this cat he needs some money from (2)
-invites people over to swim, who make secret requests that hurt my feelings (3)
-has the nerve to get into my car smelling like pot, (4)
after i brought him to this place so he could "drop off money for a concert ticket" which was supposed to last 30 seconds?

i don't know. i don't know what to do.

mania expense account

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 04:25:13 GMT

+2500 sticker kit

two pair fishnet stockings [lavander & seafoam]

two pair socks [green barcode & green + purple swirlies]

two pair tinkerbelle undies

one slimming blk lace pantaloons

story of o

little altars everywhere

five prescriptions, none of them working?

skipping work because i can't stand up without the fear of crashing through the window?

+ in the p.m.:

eleven slips / vintage lingerie

one pollyanna ruffled gown

one 60s blue sea foam dress

one black satin beaded mermaid wrap

one pair (ever desired) penny loafers

one pair black velvet maryjanes

one pair black wool slacks

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 00:45:09 GMT

i wish:

i had seen billie holiday perform
live

three favourite movie see[n]s

Mon, 24 Jun 2002 00:45:04 GMT

"h'ray for bubbles!" [wings]

dance hypnoteyes [metropolis]
&

skin e{merge}nce} [hiroshima, mon amour]

+ eisenstein, eisenstein, eisenstein
[even though it terrifies me]

a glorious day

Sun, 16 Jun 2002 05:44:01 GMT

in my hair: 2 st*rs, a fl*wer, & a butt*rfly

on my walk:

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in my hair: 2 st*rs, a fl*wer, & a butt*rfly

on my walk:
<li="circle">
<li>flowers in the windowsill
<li>"oh, you pretty air!"
<li>2 women w/ a baby
<li>people talking in the street
<li>writing this list
<li>a group of men in blue shirts
<li>two women holding hands
<li>tomato shirts!
<li>little birds
<li>"hello!"
<li>street crossing
<li>random smiles
<li>"have a good night now!"
<li>rainbow bookstores
<li>listening to people flirting in line
<li>green arrows pointing at the moon
<li>2 couples holding hands
<li>a man tying his shoe
<li><i>"take a walk through the park, take a valium pill"</i>
<li>mango milkshakes

the college collage

Mon, 10 Jun 2002 18:41:25 GMT

as written; fonts needed = (is a list in itself!) arial narrow, robot teacher, two turtle doves, ravie, pristina, parade, jokerman, french script MT, curlz MT, MS reference serif, action jackson, gill sans MT, freestyle script

i know i will.

COLLeGe:

Need:

> hello kitty coffee pot > stereo > ribbons > cute pencils, notebooks > iron? > toiletries > baskets (?) / or more hatboxes! > mirror

* B R I N G W i T H : *

bloomers, ribbons, china plates, cd's, nancy drew books (???), sandman, some craft supplies, highlighters!, camera?, some gloves, CUTe sheets!, tap shoes + ballet slippers, B . O . O . K . S, text, S*T*iC*Ke*R*S!, peacock feathers?,
oooh, i like the way my head sounds when i move it..., teacups (definately), hello kitty soaps, hand painted champagne glasses, handbags, blankets, art supplies, SOCKS!, fishnets, lollipops, computer! (hee!), school stuff (files, etc.), ♥ & excitement!

keep behind :(

memories (no, not that kind!)
champagne bottles
hatboxes ?
clothes
cd cases
not sure @ masques

miss pell

Tue, 21 May 2002 05:59:18 GMT

ocasionally
tomorrow
apparently
embarassed
parrallel
perpindicular

unsent

Wed, 01 May 2002 15:19:31 GMT

* font = may queen

Dear ~~Matthew~~ raoul,
I like you a lot.
I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now,
And I respect that.
I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future and you want to
Come visit me in california, I would be
Open to spending time with you and
Finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song.

Dear ~~Jonathan~~ jeremy,
I liked you too much.
I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me
And think solely about themselves. and you were
Plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time.
I used to say 'the more tragic the better'.
The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90s, your face comes up with a vengeance
Like it was yesterday.

Dear ~~Terrance~~ casey,
I love you muchly
You've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and supportive
And nurturing, and consumately there for me.
I kept drawing you in
And pushing you away. I remember how beautiful it was
To fall asleep on your couch and cry in front of you for the first time, you were the
Best platform from which to jump beyond myself What was wrong with me?

Dear ~~Marcus~~ goblin,
You rocked my world.
You had a charismatic way about you with the women
And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality.
And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass,
But I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you though.
And that stopped us from going any further than we did,
And it's kind of too bad, 'cause we could've had much more fun.

Dear ~~Lou~~ q,
We learned so much.
I realize we won't be able to talk for some time,
And I understand that as I do you.
The long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could;
We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives.
I will always have your back and be curious about you
About your career, your whereabouts.

....

i drew hearts

Wed, 24 Apr 2002 22:06:29 GMT

he has funny hair

he helps me finish my projects

he encourages me to be a "good" girl

{backseat fellatio!}

he eats lollies with me

he whispers, "you are marvelous"

he takes me to see delicious girls and lets me % them backstage

~~he is a hippie~~ (i forgive him)

he makes patchwork pants! (twinsies!)

he brings me water to drink when we are sleepies

he picks me up when i am drunk

he gets me drunk!

my pants mysteriously disappear when i am with him

he gets me off while i drive

he does not make fun of me for calling peanuts "candy-apple nuts"

he is oh-so polite to my mother

he says "we can do anything you want" & means it.

he read my nancy drew sleuth book while i finished my design. (it was the cutest thing ever)

he is compassionate.

he celebrates with me

he celebrates me!

we celebrate each other :)

he orders good drink

he gives good massage

he helps me feel free

he studies film-making! (twinsies #2!)

he laughs often

he kisses often

popsicles-in-waiting!

additional:

he dresses me in nightgowns when i am too drunk to move

he wraps me in a bumblebee when i am too fucked to wave

he lets me hold him down and drink him in

when i am too afraid of everything

he does not let me drive into trees,

he whispers that he wants to make forever last
with me

%

but the best part is,

he recognizes when i am uncomfortable
&

he does not disappear when i am sad. *:?

for the love of psychology

Wed, 10 Apr 2002 21:26:13 GMT

black knit minidress

black tights
hot pink fishnets
pink bloomers
pink ribbon around neck
lighter pink ribbon in hair
black platform heels
black velvet coat
hot pink / lime green nails

pink highlighters! %

ultimate list-ness

Wed, 03 Apr 2002 23:35:59 GMT

* on a star quest
* ninja lickin' good!

no more

Wed, 03 Apr 2002 22:58:47 GMT

♥ going to clubs with boys just so they will pay my in trance fee
♥ ~~only doing e with people i care about~~
♥ ~~the constant urge to call you~~

self composition

Wed, 03 Apr 2002 22:44:46 GMT

!ribbons on wrists
@fishnets in a bag
#strappy heels
$ruffled socks
%applications in hand
^submission {complete}
&flashing stoplights
(policemen in boots)
*making dates with
)no small talk(

__moving on:

traffic cops, hand signals

lists on the steering wheel
turning before it's time
trying to keep my head on straight
putting "i" instead of "you" (ani difranco songs)
littering my car
switching heels for boots -- making me feel like mrs. rogers